Oh No! Another winter storm!

I honestly don't believe that the winter storm is going to be bad. I think we might be a little somethingsomething, but nothing so big where you have to cancel class and shit. Look outside people! There ain't nothin' thurr!

I Finally had my interview yesterday with Sage and I think it went super well. The place is soooo cute and I'm just waiting for a call that will come either today or tomorrow. I thought it came at lunch today when I was with Jessica, but no, it was the dentist. I got really excited, and then "You can come in Monday to get your teeth cleaned!" Argg. When do I start teaching small people how to make bread?! I must knowww!

Let me tell you something. My life is awesome right now. I'm going really well in school, I like 4/5 of my classes, I'm most likely going to work at an awesome place which I am really going to like, and I have time to do everything I want to do. I see Steven everyday, I drink coffee often (like right now), and I'm ahead of homework! Everything is going for me, but I have been feeling random spouts of depression and sadness for unknown reasons. I then get really irritable and snippy if I haven't eaten for like two hours. Normally, I have to not eat all day for that to happen. Its really weird to try to figure out why you're sad nothing is really going against you. There is one thing, but I really don't want to think that me not talking to someone is making me feel so stupid.

I want to make bread and give it to homeless people. They can sop up soup with it.

Another Monday

Have I mentioned I love my new room? Well I do. It's just like my old room, with all the same shit, just smaller, and with one bed, and one closet. It's like the twin I never had died. Her name was Candice. We didn't really get along.

I have made this master list of what i have to do this week which mostly contains reading over 300 pages of various text books and then eventually taking two quizzes. It's a good thing that I love 4/5 of my classes because otherwise this semester might end up like last semester, which would be horrible.

I'm still waiting for Sage to confirm a time for my interview which is really annoying. I also found out that they aren't open on Mondays, which means I just have to wait longer. That's stupid.

So, I was doing the reading for my Developmental psych class last night when I came across the section taking about defects in newborns and how they come about. They are called tetrogens....and the study of tetrogens is a tretrology. I was born with tretrology of fallot. This means that apparently, maybe my mom did something bad while I was in her belly that caused this. Or maybe not. I'm going to look it up and find out for sure before I yell at her for eating too much fish which I was in her. That freaked me out in the middle of class which then caused the professor to be like...uh no you're fine, just look it up before you cuss out your mom. Uh, thanks. Awesome. Geh.

Also, I don't want to watch a video of a lady giving birth on Friday. I've seen Knocked up. Does that count?

Drama

Ohmygod where do I even begin?

I finally moved all of my shit into my new tiny room, which I love. I haven't sent out the I'm not your RA anymore letters so some people might be curious, but I don't care right now. Moving day was coupled with drama from the now ex-best friend, but what can you do? I'm very happy in the current situation. It's cute and compacted and I love it.

I got an interview for Sage culinary studio so I'm sure Kaiti Cox would be proud. Sometime this week so hopefully I can secure a job by Friday. I'm really excited and proud of myself because hunting for jobs is one of the hardest stupidest things to do.

This week should be easy because I only have two quizzes at the end of the week. I'm looking forward to working in my new room.

And I know everyone is wanting a rant so here we go:

Those commercials with Brooke Shields about growing longer, stronger eye lashes...WHAT IS THIS NONSENSE?! Why is this a medical condition? Is this something people honestly care about? Are men now wanting women with foot long eye lashes instead of long legs? Why would you consult your doctor about this?

Also, I will always be with Coco.

Moving week

I have been approved for a single, which I will begin assessing today. It is approximately half the size of my current room which concerns me. Where am I going to put all my stuff? I'll move everything by Friday so I have time to go to my cousin's baby shower on Saturday.

I went to the Extreme Home Makeover thing on Monday, skipping class, just to see Ty Pennington, but damn, he wasn't there. Not worth it. I did get a hoodie, but I should have gone to class. I was upset.

Steven finally turned 20, so we hung out with some friends the day before at Fox and Hound, and then went to dinner with his parents on his birthday. I got good presents because I am the best girlfriend.

However, this week does have some sadness because September isn't going to live with me. That whore! Who am I supposed to live with now?! I am upset. It killed my mojo.

Mojo dead.

Relief...and waiting

Long weekends are the absolute best thing ever. It sucks because TU only gets like three a year so I cherish them when they come.

I learned that the job I really want at Laureate is no longer available, which is really upsetting. I am planning to still call them to change my application, but I really wanted that job. I'm looking into a couple of other places as well, but still, with #1 gone already its hard to get motivated.

I stayed at home alot this weekend. I cooked dinner for Faith and we hung out alot. I'm looking forward to going out for Steven's birthday dinner with friends tonight. I am also looking forward to getting the two Christmas presents that never came in the mail today.

I wasn't looking forward to the staff meeting yesterday because I would be telling everyone that I was leaving, but when I did no one looked surprised or like they cared. I only told one person in that room, which made me feel unwanted and like no one really liked my in the first place.

No school today. Duh. Tomorrow is Steven's birthday. Then school. But that's ok, cause I like school.

When was the last time you hurled?

I woke up this morning feeling really weird and like I really had to go to the bathroom, but I never did. Then I toured the University school which reminds me of Riverfield hxc. The kids were really cute and I am glad we went there. Then after running around campus because the people at the bookstore can suck stick it, I went back to my room to story for a map quiz (which I made a 100 on). I felt really nauseous and had to lie down, eventually going to the sink to get a drink but throwing up twice instead. Where did this come from!? I was upset. I thought eating lunch Amelia would be better but apparently my body hates me and the caf is not good for a person feeling bad.

So I took that quiz, and then another for the same class and made 100's on both. I also vacuumed. After I log off my this computer I'm planning on heading home to snuggle with Faith and discuss my future with my parents.

Also, I'm planning on calling HR at Laureate to demand a job. I will get it.

Official title #1...I guess

Hi. Today has been lovely. I'll tell you about it.

Actually these last few days have been going really well school wise. I really like all of my classes. How weird is that!? However, I do not understand anything that my philosophy/religion class. But that teacher is so adorable. The first class he wore his tie backwards. How cute. But seriously I have no idea what he's talking about. Also, in clinical today we watched a video where I saw a real life lobotomy. Um, I would just like to say, gross.

I'm really bored. I went to Target, that was lovely. I also got coffee. My life is dull.

Oh, by the way, MY LIFE IS SO FUCKING AWESOME!

So, I have been really unhappy in my current position as an RA. That much is obvious. I have too much to do. I need to focus on school. I talked to Stephanie today (well, she talked to me)...and she totally knew without anyone really telling her! What! OhMaGawd! So she knew, and like an awesome person. I want to be happy. In order to be so, I have to no be an RA anymore.

Now this comes with a lot of baggage, you see. I feel horribly guilty, but I know that this is what I am supposed to do. There was one other time where I felt I knew what I had to do, like for sure, but I cannot remember what that was damnit! So, I have by the end of January to make all final decisions. This is what I know for sure: by the end of January I will not be an RA anymore, I will not live in this room anymore, I will either live in another Lottie room or at home (for the rest of the semester), I will not have desk hours, I will not have duty, I will not have to plan things. I will be getting a regular job, however.

A teacher of mine has another job at Laureate, which is a place I really really really want to work. So I did what any other smart college student would do. I sent the suck up e-mail. And it worked! She's looking into getting me an interview! Holy shit Baman! I'm so excited. Sigh.....I like coffee.

First day of school! Yay!

I totally couldn't get to sleep last night because some people were being loud. What a surprise....I got up at eight and went to developmental psychology and I have to say, I am super excited about it. I get to create a virtual child. I am SO excited about that. I'm leaning towards Lazario. It could change. I then had a three hour break, so I had lunch with Amelia. I am so glad we went at 11:30, because by the time we left the line was out the door by the housing office. Who wants nachos and fried chicken that bad? I then went to Medieval world, which is going to be hilarious. That professor is insane.

carswithnogames.com?

Then research methods, which I am still not really sure what is about.

Lately, as in the past three days, I have been really hardcore sleeping in. Like until noon. That's crazy. And not really acceptable. I hate sleeping really late normally because I feel like I have wasted so much time doing things I didn't really want to do.

I was expecting there to be food at the staff development thing I had to go to, but there was none, and I ate celery, peanut butter, pretzels, and applesauce. A true college student.

The staff devo. was ok. I didn't really want to go but the activities were fine and most of the people weren't that annoying. Now, two hours later I plan to go home and make dinner for Steven and I, just days before we start back up at school, which I am happy about. I am not happy about staff.

Uhhhhh my life is so boring! What am I supposed to do!?

Back at school. I have made my room a million times more awesome by putting up the lights that the lovely Amelia gave me for Christmas. My first day of training was full of complete crap and it went in one ear and out the other. I care not. I care about school. I do have two new residents. One is from Nigeria. And I'm really itchy. I put lotion everywhere! To much info? Oh well...

Maybe you heard from my Facebook status, but I took a shower in the love community shower (which I don't really mind) and the water smelled like The Olive Garden. What the fuck! This is some kind of sick conspiracy between me and the Italian giant. It literally smelled like spaghetti sauce and garlic bread. Which makes me confused as to what I currently smell like. I put on a lot of lotion because it's so dry out, so I could smell like bread sticks and passion fruit. It's really up in the air.

It just hit me that I won't be able to cook for a while, which saddens me greatly. I love cooking! I might be developing something I am deathly afraid of...a passion! Oh God!

Moving back to school today. I was going to get up at 9, but once again my pillow was delicious. So I got up at 11 and packed up pretty much everything i owned into two giant suitcases and my backpack-thingy. And I live about 17 minutes away.

I was told that I cannot move back until 4pm, so until then I'm watching True Life, reading cookbooks, and thinking about how much I want to kill my dog for wanting to go in and out every ten seconds.

Who is with me on hating all original series that the CW puts out? That one about the gymnasts, the one about that girl getting pregnant, and that new one about, Ohmygod I found my parents...you gave me up for adoption, why does no one love me...jumping off a bridge.

Am I the only one who loves office supplies?

Today I got up at noon. It was equally amazing as it was disappointing. I totally wanted to get a head start on getting all of school things together but I didn't do any of that. I went to eat with my mom at a chain restaurant, went to Barnes and Noble, the grocery store, Starbucks (where I saw my best friend Amelia), and then home.

Let me just say this about chain restaurants...I HATE them. All of them. Ohmygawd, the concept, the service, the food (mostly) and everything about them. People think they are eating real Italian food when they go to Olive Garden. It's so stupid. Also, the thing that bothers me most about most chain restaurants and others as well is right when you sit down and your waiter comes over and says, "Hi everyone, my name is Tracy and I'll be taking care of you tonight."

First of all, Tracy, you are not my mother and I would really rather you not take care of me tonight. I would like you to be my personal servant, and get my drinks, chips, and food. That would be great. Also, we're not friends, so don't act like we are.
The next time I go somewhere and a waiter says this to me I'm going to let them have it, because seriously, I might kill everyone.

Right now I'm watching my sister play this really weird game on the Wii called Animal Crossing. I can't stop watching...and I'm also really embarrassed to say, I get really into it.

So today was the day that everyone else in my house went back to work and school. My mother is currently out of town with my grandma, who just had her ankle replaced. My sister went back to senior year of high school, and my dad went to do something with natural gas. I have no idea what he does exactly.

I totally planned to get up at 8:30 and do stuff..I don't know what kind of stuff...but I ended up getting up at 11 instead, just because my pillow was so delicious and comfy.

I was going to get up an bake something and I had planned to make Ina's white bread thing, but this house does not have all the ingredients... like yeast. Thanks mom. So instead I found this other recipe for espresso cereal bars. Uh...DELICIOUS! So I go ahead and start them and what happens...? No peanut butter...like...someone put the peanut butter in the fridge with it only gracing the sides. Who does that ?! Apparently my mother...awesome mom. Thanks. So I made them anyway with pretty much no PB and they are currently setting. Ugh.

I hope today doesn't suck hardcore like yesterday pretty much did.

When is everything going to get exciting? Maybe Thursday when I have to be back to school by noon in order to sit through four hours of extra RA training. Uh...no. I am not stupid. School may be hard for me, and I may have a short attention span, but I certainly know how to listen and plan things for residents. Having them come to them is another story. Why are freshman so consumed in being freshman? Was I like that last year? Last year I remember not doing anything and having a really good time doing it. I didn't go to any event that my RA invited me too and that was fine with me. Mainly because they were really stupid.

Knock on door at 8pm on Thursday when all my friends were over to watch The Office... answer.. Kim standing there looking really happy, but I could tell she was nervous... "We're having a Mexican fiesta in the lobby...there will be a pinata." Uhhh, ok thanks. (Code for I will not be coming to your really stupid event because you interrupted my friend time, ya stupid!)

My events are cooler, but I no longer care about them. In fact if I could magically not be an RA anymore I would. This is a new thought and it is still forming, but I feel very strongly about it. I just don't want to be with those bitches anymore. I really honestly dislike them all.

But I do like the housing scholarship...Having my own room gives me some serious me space, which is needed.

I have been on winter vacation for it seems like too long. Yes, I love being home with my family and not doing anything, but at the same time I hate it. After living on campus for the first years and a half I have come to appreciate my parents more, but in smaller doses. I go back to school in five days, and they could not come sooner. But with that, I want them to drag on and on and on.

Going back to school means many things. I enjoy college because each semester you start over, like it’s the first day of school twice a year. New classes and a new routine. I like that again this semester. I’m starting five new classes, three of which are of my major, psychology. The others, The Medieval World and Great Conversations II are these weird required classes which I would rather not take, ever.

I need to get one thing straight, first off. School is hard. It is really hard for me. Probably because I have trouble putting forth the proper time and motivation. Its hard damnit. I'm sure I'm not the only one who feels this way. I'm sure...

So, it starts soon and I don't have any of my shit together and waiting till the last minute is probably not a good idea. Even though that is probably what will end up happening. ((Sigh))