I'm giving my life away

Currently gutting my room, which is odd. All of coffee is gone as are pretty much everything in the drawers. Going to be spending my last two nights in Lottie these next two. Delicious.

Going through stuff is weird. Found a lot of things September has given me or made me and I don't really know what to do with them. What do I do with my clipboard that she decorated for me? Do I keep it? Should I toss it? I'm a little confused. I am excited about my last day of class tomorrow and then study study its your buddy. It's not really my buddy but I'll say it is for kicks.

This short weekend while I was at home I made dinner one night (a pasta dish from an Ina Garten cookbook) and crinkle cookies for 3 of my teachers. I'm planning on taking over the cooking and grocery shopping for my mother this summer so I can figure everything out and do something I really like doing. Also.

THE OPRAH 20TH ANNIVERSARY DVD BOX SET IS THE BEST THING I HAVE EVER PURCHASED.
that is all.

Long Time, Skip the Counter

There has been a lot of stuff going on. A lot of stuff. I ain't lying to ya. I've been busy. First off, today is my 3 year anniversary with my amazing boyfriend Steven. Clap Clap Clap. It's a miracle that we haven't killed each other. We will not be celebrating today, however because we are too busy and that is sad.

Let me tell you what's going on.

I have 2 presentations and 3 finals before I'm off for summer. I will be completely done by May 5th. I have a lot planned for the month of May which involves seeing Conan O'Brien, my sister's graduation, seeing my two new cousins, visiting my grandma, and possibly going on vacation with BF Steven and BFF Cody. June 7th I'll start TCC classes (OMG KILL ME NOW!) and everyday throughout the summer I will be cooking something. I'm planning on documenting it and rating everything I make. I'm also developing all of my butter flavors which is very exciting. I'll also be applying at Pare on Cherry Street which is neat. I don't know if that's really a good idea, but we'll see how everything goes with the stuff n' stuff.

I am overly excited about what's to come, and you should be too.

I miss you Heath

I have had a lot of conversations about this blog as of late. What is it's purpose? Why do I keep it? Do you really need to know that I have a test this week and I'm freaking out about it? I want to write things people are interested in reading and that maybe it could go out farther, into internet space and become something, maybe.

My life isn't interesting. That was the original point of this blog. But that's not a very good point. Actually it's horrible.

Here are the possible things I want this blog to be about:Summer, my butter making process, my decisions about my future, my babysitting.

I would like input and other suggestions. Mmmmk.

I don't want to be friends

Sigh...love me tender.
Awkward.

Going into this week with an open mind. Really open. Like trannies on a donkey open. You dig me? I am currently listening to a cover of Bad Romance sung by Jared Leto, one of the greatest actors of all time. That's right, I said it. He rivals Jack Nicholson and Daniel Day-Lewis. Have you seen Chapter 27!!?? Watch it!

My schedule this week looks like I have nothing to do but really I do. I have to write a paper that is due Friday @ 1pm about The Song of Roland and some other story about that one guy but I haven't really started on either of them and I'm not really sure how I'm going to pull this one off. How can anything be accomplished with the sun shining and everything beautiful and warm and delicious? I do thrive in muggy weather with rain and darkness and shallow deep meanings but the sun is starting to make me wilt which I kind of enjoy. My homework doesn't enjoy it, however. Why are the girls who live next door to me always speaking Angolian so loudly? What are you saying?!

So to all my butta friends out there (which I doubt there are any), I made some chocolate butter three days ago and it was magical. What would to serve chocolate butter with? Cinnamon bread? Short bread cookies? Is that too much? I think I'm going to make some this week for my buddy Natalie's birthday. Would she like lemon butter or honey butter? I would like honey because lemon is sour. But I do love me some LEMONS!

This is how it goes

I am currently on the lookout for a new job. I cannot wait until June to not be the immigrant in the back washing dishes. It's absurd. I don't need to listen to someone tell me that I missed the spot of peanut butter on the floor that's the size of nothing. Give me a break. I also don't want to have someone make me feel stupid. I want a job with substance. I want something amazing.

The weather has been amazing lately. This makes me really want money so I can just go and buy coffee after coffee and sit outside and read n shit. I am having a weird brain jumble. My bed was so comfy this morning. I am looking forward to uniting with Scott and making an awesome video about gays and Adam Lambert.

Have I mentioned I finally made butter? It was amazing. And delicious. And I will Never kill anyone with my food you ungrateful ugly ass bitch!

I hope it rains today.

Ending a good song with an awkward cord

So hey.

Today is an amazing day. It's so weird that three days ago it snowed harder than a whore on something hard. Not a very good metaphor,but you get it. I could sit outside and do my homework but I'll just sit inside here and open the window and be envious of all the people outside who have nothing to worry about. I have a test tomorrow in developmental psychology which is over a lot of things I really don't care about, but maybe I should look into studying cause I need a good grade. I like them, that's all.

Last night I shared one of my most beloved secrets with Caitlin, and together we watched Married to the Eiffel Tower. It is amazing and makes me want to cry. I honestly wanted to be Amy for Halloween but instead I wore an alligator hat to Ted's house and oddly enough Lydia wore a unicorn hat. Buddies we are.

I really want to make butter, but I have no kitchen or supplies. I also am excited about the midnight movie at the circle this weekend. The Room! Sigh...

I'm really boring.

Blizzard #3

So its been a while, so let me catch the lonely 4 up.

I spent the last week of spring break freaking out over two tests and also that my father was in the hospital for all of that time. Being that I was so stressed, I abandoned my diet/workout routine for that time and spring break but am looking forward to getting back on track and meeting my goal in time. My dad is out of the hospital and wating till Monday to get all the stiches out. He's really annoyed that he's housebound for two weeks.

I have made the decision to make some big decisions coming up here soon. This involves my education and potantial life path. Details will come when the decision making comes closer, and I look forward to stressing about it until then.

I'm still working at Sage, but that's a little up in the air at this point. If I continue to be the Mexican in the back washing dishes for 8 hours, I will be looking for other work, so we'll see. This spring break I have been working everyday and helping teach a spring break cooking camp. Also being the cleaning bitch. I got totally yelled at for not being able to clean things properly, so I might be quitting that bitch! What an exciting and scary thought.

I am also in the very beginning stages of starting my own small business/internet company making my own butter. That's right. Making my own, butta. I will have over 20 different flavors of butter to chose from and by e-mail, people from around Tulsa can order it. It's amazing. It's called Brooklyn's Butta! I'm really excited about it. You should be too.

I'm looking forward to the future. And all teh butta.

Rock and A

I'm in a pinch. A literal pinch. I have two tests to study for this week. I do no have the material for one of them. I work 4 times this week. My father is still in the hospital and will be until spring break. My going to be roommate wants to get another roommate and we choose apartments in 3 days. I have very important life decisions to to make coming after May 8th. Every time I try to caffeinate I have to have a (potty) break but the bathroom smells like (shit). I write this and spill my soul and innermost thoughts about people who do not read this and hopefully never will, to (maybe) 5 people. I really like Meryl Streep. I probably do not smell that great. I am a little stressed. Why did I never play tackle football? Why am I not in gymnastics? I cheated a lot on my diet this weekend, which is a downer. I need a moment.


(Insert Moment)

I don't know if this is where I am supposed to be.

May I say, excellent wine...

I spent the weekend at home. It was really fun to just be with my family for a few days and not work or do anything. I was really excited on Friday when I got to teach my first class at Sage. It turned out to be with one girl, so I gave her a private lesson making ginger snaps. It was really fun and now I'm teaching a baking class every Friday. So excited!

This week is going well so far, only being Monday night at 8:30pm. Tomorrow will be filled with watching Army of Darkness for extra credit and getting paid, son! Then working on Wednesday, Friday, and Saturday. Teaching on Friday is what I am very excited about. Also, there are nine school days left before spring break which I will be spending everyday working. Every-day. Bring in the dough so I can get outta this town, son!

"Is it normal to not like your friends?"
"It's completely normal."

Currently: Wondering why my Julie and Julia DVD is hxc skipping...
How many lbs. I'll loose this week...
What tomorrow will be like...
What did I get on my medieval midterm!!??...
What will ten years from now be like...
If you're fat, you should know how you got fat...
I feel weird...

Strawberry Slugs

So, um, my job is stupid. If I wanted to clean dishes and sweep shit all the time I would have gone to the Olive Garden, but I can't do that cause they're out to get me. (I already said this exact statement to Jessica earlier and I am recycling it, and I think that's okay) While I was working the other day this girl I work with asked me I would work Saturday night (no) for this other girl who's...14 (no) because she wanted to go to a dance (no). I didn't outright say no. I said I would get back to her tomorrow, but honestly the answer is HELL NO! Then the weird part was, my boss asked me to work on Friday, and I didn't really want to because I'm going to Amelia's party so I said no. Then she said, "Well that's too bad cause I was going to have you teach a class." Really? Are you kidding me! Just shoot me, really. But I texted her later and said I would do it because I'm not stupid. Just persistent. Then the anger just mounted when I found out all the results for staff selection for next year. Really housing department!? Really? What the fuck is wrong with you? Is there something giant up your housing ass? All I can say is that I am glad I'm living in an apartment next year.

I also need a hug.

Desperate Youth, Bloodthirsty Babes

I am determined to stay up and study for this test and then go into Dr.Arnold's office and go over things with him. I feel like I'm planning some sort of attack, which is awkward. Here's the thing, I am really, really bad at taking tests. Most of the time I'm like...yeah that sounds like it could be right in some cases, go for it Ellen!...and I got a 66. Awesome. And normally when I think I do really really well, I don't. I should not be allowed to take tests because they are sabotaging my college career. It's a short one, but its there. Clovis was a badass and killed everyone. Charlemagne was kinda like Henry the 8th, but smaller, and maybe less wives. Maybe. Why am I telling you this, 4 people who read this?

Other things with minor importance:::: I am liking my job. I guess. I haven't really gotten into it or anything. I will this week. I might teach soon. I am working EVERYDAY during spring break. Why did I do that? Oh yeah, I need gas. I am teaching Caitlin how to cook so she'll have some skills and some recipes before the turns her tassel. Also, I'm thinking that if I don't pull out good grades this semester because of my lack of test taking skills, I'm going to either A) drop out and kill myself, B) Drop out, take a year off and work, and then go to a distinguished culinary school, or C) try again? I don't know chillens. Maybe I'll become one a street performer or move to India and try to learn to make curry. How hard could that be?

Inverted Origami

As I sit here at my desk in my little room, drinking my cup of Shade Grown Mexico while listening to Billy Talent, I'm really happy. This semester has been a jumble of me feeling happy and unhappy and confused and unsure and excited and wonderful. But now, I think I can call myself ok. After writing this I have to make 20 flash cards for Dr. Arnold's class and get extra credit, which everyone knows is necessary. I've gotten two of my three tests back so far and it just proves that I am not a good test taker. I make stupid mistakes, no matter if I study hours and hours and I never hit it home. I should go work out but I don't know if I'll have time with the writing of the extra credit, lunch, and then class. I have to go home and sit with Faith who will have had her wisdom teeth out by then while my mom heads out with my dad.

I have now worked at my job for three days. I have alot to say about it, believe me. I ranted for about 30 minutes to Steven last night while he was very kind and just listened, but honestly I shouldn't complain. There are several things I don't like about it, like my 14 year old co-workers but then again I know the first week at a new job is bitch work all over and here's how to put the toilet paper on. I should be thankful that I have a job which, at one point I will very much enjoy, and that I can do what I really like somewhere. Next week I'll really be getting in to the groove and helping classes by myself and then running a birthday party next Saturday. I also get to give my input with meals and menus and eat everything they make. For example, last night the teen class (which consists of two of my co-workers) made gyros and apple crisp. So I tried lamb for the first time and it was delicious. However, all of them touched it, and I might become paranoid and not eat anything they make anymore. Sigh. I just can't win here. There is a recipe, however, called chicken oh-la-la which I am very curious about. What the hell is that? I hope there's cheese.

Just like Special K

I am currently listening to Animal Collective while I write this and procrastinate just a little more. I have a test at 9:30 am and it's currently 12:17 am. I started studying for this test today which is not a good idea but I did have a very full weekend where Faith and Daryl spend the night in my tiny room and I had to finish a philosophy paper by 9pm on a Sunday. I finished by 10am that day, which was really awesome. So right. Things.

My Valentine's day was spent with Faith and Daryl and Steven. ACTS was great this year, bringing out my inner queen. The food at the Tulsa Time dinner wasn't as good as past times, but whatev. I'll deal I suppose. I spent time with Caitlin and tried to comfort her while she's having a hard time. I don't mind doing the cha cha slide and listening to her vent. Also watching movies is a good way to not think about pending stressors, so that helped probably. I'm also going to teach her to cook so she can by the time she graduates.

I started my new job and even though the first day was very very basic (here's how you wash these dishes and change the toilet paper) I'm excited for the future in it and teaching kids how to cook. I'm still learning too, but I have to say I'm getting really good at it. I'm no Ina or anything, but I'm striving to be. My workout program is going well too. I haven't worked out these past two days, which makes me sad, but school is very important. I've already lost 4 lbs. so that's really cool. Tomorrow I'm going to make up for not going in a while and two for extra long and then do 8 minute buns and abs. HXC!!

The 7UP commercial with Brad Garrett makes me really happy. He's reaching out to tickle a horsey!Genius!

Weekend Home

I'm finally at home after a really long weird week. Tonight I'm going to be presenting Faith at the Berryhill basketball game because my parents are in Vegas. Gross. So after pretending I'm Faith's mother or something creepy, I'll be crashing at home and maybe starting on my paper that's due on Sunday by 9pm. Double gross.

Saturday I have my first day at work, because oh yeah, I finally got that job! Thank God. I go in at 9am, but only work for three hours. I'll be training tomorrow and Wednesday of next week and tomorrow is a birthday party so yeah. We'll see how it goes.

Then Saturday night I'll be playing hostess and making homemade brick over pizza for Steven and Faith. I hope that turns out ok. I'm really looking forward to actually getting to cook something. Also, I think Valentine's Day is cute, but I do not celebrate.

Chocolate Cookie Drink

This week is nutz-o. On Monday I had the first test of the semester and I'm kind of skeptical about it. I have another test tomorrow which I hope will be a lot better. I turned in a paper today too, which was awesome. I'm kind of worried about my next paper coming up which is due on Sunday by 9pm. I don't even really know what its about, which probably isn't that great. Maybe I should figure that out. It's hard though, when the teacher doesn't know where he is.

My plan to get healthy is going really well. I went to the gym everyday but Monday last week and I went today. I'm thinking of looking into a supplement like that weird one the Kardashian's endorse. I don't know though.

Also September still isn't talking to me. Way to me mature babe.

I wish there was such thing as a diet cookie.

Study filled weekend

My week after my fainting fiasco went well. Nothing really big happened, other than I laughed in September's face, but not really on purpose. It was actually really funny, but if you weren't there then you probably think that I'm a huge bitch, which I totally can be, at times.

Last week I was really angry and being mean to mostly Steven because I felt like I didn't have any friends anymore, but now I am totally over that and feelin' good. I finally think I have a job, and I say think because "You're hired" was never really said. I got another e-mail back from Sage after I sent a 'please don't forget about me' e-mail. I'm meeting the owner and head hancho on Thursday. But I don't know why. I don't know what this meeting is about. What am I going to wear? It's cold out. Still. Can this be over? I'm ready for spring. I want to wear my Tom's full time again.

Last night I went on a celebratory dinner with my parents at my absolute favorite restaurant ever, The Palace Cafe. This was a Yay you got a job (we think) and happy Valentin's Day because we'll be in Vegas dinner. I had roast chicken on top of green apple polenta, a green salad, goat cheese, and a cherry glaze. Oh holy crap it was amazing. Also, who doesn't like herbed butter? If they don't they are crazy because its bitchn'.

This weekend I have to stay shut up in my room or the Law Library (which is far superior to McFarlin) to study for my two exams, two papers, and a lot of reading. I'm on cup of coffee #1. I suspect at least three or four by the end of the day.

I have also worked out everyday this week (except Monday, because, hello, I fainted). I'm thinking of doing 8 minute abs and buns today. Oh those instructors and their tight blue pants...

The Faint

Good band. Best band I've ever seen live. Best concert I've been to with Steven. There was a lot of dancing. Anyway, the story.

Yesterday in developmental psychology we were watching a movie called "from conception to birth". We weren't supposed to be watching it. I was fine. Really. Until the end when the women started having the babies. It was really gross. I didn't seen any casolpus, but the blood and goop on the doctors hands was horrible, and it was in this weird lighting which made it seem like they were going to hand the baby off to be experimented on. Anyway, I got really hot. And I kept getting hotter and hotter. I felt really weird. I thought, I hope this isn't what it feels like right before you pass out. I really need to take off my hoodie...too late.

The next thing I know I'm on the floor and people are saying my name and asking me if I'm ok. What am I? Why the fuck am I on the floor? Why am I at home? Oh shit, I'm still in class. I asked for water, the teacher bolted from the room and security was called, who then called EMSA. I turned over and all 30 people in the class left, leaving me with the teacher. I just wanted someone to pour water on my head. I took my hoodie off and felt better. I sat up and cried. Nothing hurt, I was just so embarrassed and overwhelmed I couldn't stand it. The professor called my mom. Then EMSA came and asked me a lot of questions and wanted me to ride on the stretcher outside. Hell me blondie! I'll walk with you, reluctantly. I sat in the ambulance for like an hour, having them take my blood pressure and wait for my mom. All the while she was wanting to take me to the ER to have blood work done. NO!! I will not do that bitch! My mom came, and I cried a lot because I'm really scared of needles, and then they let me go when they found out I passed out because I was watching live birth. Worst day ever.

And I missed my dentist appointment...

Oh No! Another winter storm!

I honestly don't believe that the winter storm is going to be bad. I think we might be a little somethingsomething, but nothing so big where you have to cancel class and shit. Look outside people! There ain't nothin' thurr!

I Finally had my interview yesterday with Sage and I think it went super well. The place is soooo cute and I'm just waiting for a call that will come either today or tomorrow. I thought it came at lunch today when I was with Jessica, but no, it was the dentist. I got really excited, and then "You can come in Monday to get your teeth cleaned!" Argg. When do I start teaching small people how to make bread?! I must knowww!

Let me tell you something. My life is awesome right now. I'm going really well in school, I like 4/5 of my classes, I'm most likely going to work at an awesome place which I am really going to like, and I have time to do everything I want to do. I see Steven everyday, I drink coffee often (like right now), and I'm ahead of homework! Everything is going for me, but I have been feeling random spouts of depression and sadness for unknown reasons. I then get really irritable and snippy if I haven't eaten for like two hours. Normally, I have to not eat all day for that to happen. Its really weird to try to figure out why you're sad nothing is really going against you. There is one thing, but I really don't want to think that me not talking to someone is making me feel so stupid.

I want to make bread and give it to homeless people. They can sop up soup with it.

Another Monday

Have I mentioned I love my new room? Well I do. It's just like my old room, with all the same shit, just smaller, and with one bed, and one closet. It's like the twin I never had died. Her name was Candice. We didn't really get along.

I have made this master list of what i have to do this week which mostly contains reading over 300 pages of various text books and then eventually taking two quizzes. It's a good thing that I love 4/5 of my classes because otherwise this semester might end up like last semester, which would be horrible.

I'm still waiting for Sage to confirm a time for my interview which is really annoying. I also found out that they aren't open on Mondays, which means I just have to wait longer. That's stupid.

So, I was doing the reading for my Developmental psych class last night when I came across the section taking about defects in newborns and how they come about. They are called tetrogens....and the study of tetrogens is a tretrology. I was born with tretrology of fallot. This means that apparently, maybe my mom did something bad while I was in her belly that caused this. Or maybe not. I'm going to look it up and find out for sure before I yell at her for eating too much fish which I was in her. That freaked me out in the middle of class which then caused the professor to be like...uh no you're fine, just look it up before you cuss out your mom. Uh, thanks. Awesome. Geh.

Also, I don't want to watch a video of a lady giving birth on Friday. I've seen Knocked up. Does that count?

Drama

Ohmygod where do I even begin?

I finally moved all of my shit into my new tiny room, which I love. I haven't sent out the I'm not your RA anymore letters so some people might be curious, but I don't care right now. Moving day was coupled with drama from the now ex-best friend, but what can you do? I'm very happy in the current situation. It's cute and compacted and I love it.

I got an interview for Sage culinary studio so I'm sure Kaiti Cox would be proud. Sometime this week so hopefully I can secure a job by Friday. I'm really excited and proud of myself because hunting for jobs is one of the hardest stupidest things to do.

This week should be easy because I only have two quizzes at the end of the week. I'm looking forward to working in my new room.

And I know everyone is wanting a rant so here we go:

Those commercials with Brooke Shields about growing longer, stronger eye lashes...WHAT IS THIS NONSENSE?! Why is this a medical condition? Is this something people honestly care about? Are men now wanting women with foot long eye lashes instead of long legs? Why would you consult your doctor about this?

Also, I will always be with Coco.

Moving week

I have been approved for a single, which I will begin assessing today. It is approximately half the size of my current room which concerns me. Where am I going to put all my stuff? I'll move everything by Friday so I have time to go to my cousin's baby shower on Saturday.

I went to the Extreme Home Makeover thing on Monday, skipping class, just to see Ty Pennington, but damn, he wasn't there. Not worth it. I did get a hoodie, but I should have gone to class. I was upset.

Steven finally turned 20, so we hung out with some friends the day before at Fox and Hound, and then went to dinner with his parents on his birthday. I got good presents because I am the best girlfriend.

However, this week does have some sadness because September isn't going to live with me. That whore! Who am I supposed to live with now?! I am upset. It killed my mojo.

Mojo dead.

Relief...and waiting

Long weekends are the absolute best thing ever. It sucks because TU only gets like three a year so I cherish them when they come.

I learned that the job I really want at Laureate is no longer available, which is really upsetting. I am planning to still call them to change my application, but I really wanted that job. I'm looking into a couple of other places as well, but still, with #1 gone already its hard to get motivated.

I stayed at home alot this weekend. I cooked dinner for Faith and we hung out alot. I'm looking forward to going out for Steven's birthday dinner with friends tonight. I am also looking forward to getting the two Christmas presents that never came in the mail today.

I wasn't looking forward to the staff meeting yesterday because I would be telling everyone that I was leaving, but when I did no one looked surprised or like they cared. I only told one person in that room, which made me feel unwanted and like no one really liked my in the first place.

No school today. Duh. Tomorrow is Steven's birthday. Then school. But that's ok, cause I like school.

When was the last time you hurled?

I woke up this morning feeling really weird and like I really had to go to the bathroom, but I never did. Then I toured the University school which reminds me of Riverfield hxc. The kids were really cute and I am glad we went there. Then after running around campus because the people at the bookstore can suck stick it, I went back to my room to story for a map quiz (which I made a 100 on). I felt really nauseous and had to lie down, eventually going to the sink to get a drink but throwing up twice instead. Where did this come from!? I was upset. I thought eating lunch Amelia would be better but apparently my body hates me and the caf is not good for a person feeling bad.

So I took that quiz, and then another for the same class and made 100's on both. I also vacuumed. After I log off my this computer I'm planning on heading home to snuggle with Faith and discuss my future with my parents.

Also, I'm planning on calling HR at Laureate to demand a job. I will get it.

Official title #1...I guess

Hi. Today has been lovely. I'll tell you about it.

Actually these last few days have been going really well school wise. I really like all of my classes. How weird is that!? However, I do not understand anything that my philosophy/religion class. But that teacher is so adorable. The first class he wore his tie backwards. How cute. But seriously I have no idea what he's talking about. Also, in clinical today we watched a video where I saw a real life lobotomy. Um, I would just like to say, gross.

I'm really bored. I went to Target, that was lovely. I also got coffee. My life is dull.

Oh, by the way, MY LIFE IS SO FUCKING AWESOME!

So, I have been really unhappy in my current position as an RA. That much is obvious. I have too much to do. I need to focus on school. I talked to Stephanie today (well, she talked to me)...and she totally knew without anyone really telling her! What! OhMaGawd! So she knew, and like an awesome person. I want to be happy. In order to be so, I have to no be an RA anymore.

Now this comes with a lot of baggage, you see. I feel horribly guilty, but I know that this is what I am supposed to do. There was one other time where I felt I knew what I had to do, like for sure, but I cannot remember what that was damnit! So, I have by the end of January to make all final decisions. This is what I know for sure: by the end of January I will not be an RA anymore, I will not live in this room anymore, I will either live in another Lottie room or at home (for the rest of the semester), I will not have desk hours, I will not have duty, I will not have to plan things. I will be getting a regular job, however.

A teacher of mine has another job at Laureate, which is a place I really really really want to work. So I did what any other smart college student would do. I sent the suck up e-mail. And it worked! She's looking into getting me an interview! Holy shit Baman! I'm so excited. Sigh.....I like coffee.

First day of school! Yay!

I totally couldn't get to sleep last night because some people were being loud. What a surprise....I got up at eight and went to developmental psychology and I have to say, I am super excited about it. I get to create a virtual child. I am SO excited about that. I'm leaning towards Lazario. It could change. I then had a three hour break, so I had lunch with Amelia. I am so glad we went at 11:30, because by the time we left the line was out the door by the housing office. Who wants nachos and fried chicken that bad? I then went to Medieval world, which is going to be hilarious. That professor is insane.

carswithnogames.com?

Then research methods, which I am still not really sure what is about.

Lately, as in the past three days, I have been really hardcore sleeping in. Like until noon. That's crazy. And not really acceptable. I hate sleeping really late normally because I feel like I have wasted so much time doing things I didn't really want to do.

I was expecting there to be food at the staff development thing I had to go to, but there was none, and I ate celery, peanut butter, pretzels, and applesauce. A true college student.

The staff devo. was ok. I didn't really want to go but the activities were fine and most of the people weren't that annoying. Now, two hours later I plan to go home and make dinner for Steven and I, just days before we start back up at school, which I am happy about. I am not happy about staff.

Uhhhhh my life is so boring! What am I supposed to do!?

Back at school. I have made my room a million times more awesome by putting up the lights that the lovely Amelia gave me for Christmas. My first day of training was full of complete crap and it went in one ear and out the other. I care not. I care about school. I do have two new residents. One is from Nigeria. And I'm really itchy. I put lotion everywhere! To much info? Oh well...

Maybe you heard from my Facebook status, but I took a shower in the love community shower (which I don't really mind) and the water smelled like The Olive Garden. What the fuck! This is some kind of sick conspiracy between me and the Italian giant. It literally smelled like spaghetti sauce and garlic bread. Which makes me confused as to what I currently smell like. I put on a lot of lotion because it's so dry out, so I could smell like bread sticks and passion fruit. It's really up in the air.

It just hit me that I won't be able to cook for a while, which saddens me greatly. I love cooking! I might be developing something I am deathly afraid of...a passion! Oh God!

Moving back to school today. I was going to get up at 9, but once again my pillow was delicious. So I got up at 11 and packed up pretty much everything i owned into two giant suitcases and my backpack-thingy. And I live about 17 minutes away.

I was told that I cannot move back until 4pm, so until then I'm watching True Life, reading cookbooks, and thinking about how much I want to kill my dog for wanting to go in and out every ten seconds.

Who is with me on hating all original series that the CW puts out? That one about the gymnasts, the one about that girl getting pregnant, and that new one about, Ohmygod I found my parents...you gave me up for adoption, why does no one love me...jumping off a bridge.

Am I the only one who loves office supplies?

Today I got up at noon. It was equally amazing as it was disappointing. I totally wanted to get a head start on getting all of school things together but I didn't do any of that. I went to eat with my mom at a chain restaurant, went to Barnes and Noble, the grocery store, Starbucks (where I saw my best friend Amelia), and then home.

Let me just say this about chain restaurants...I HATE them. All of them. Ohmygawd, the concept, the service, the food (mostly) and everything about them. People think they are eating real Italian food when they go to Olive Garden. It's so stupid. Also, the thing that bothers me most about most chain restaurants and others as well is right when you sit down and your waiter comes over and says, "Hi everyone, my name is Tracy and I'll be taking care of you tonight."

First of all, Tracy, you are not my mother and I would really rather you not take care of me tonight. I would like you to be my personal servant, and get my drinks, chips, and food. That would be great. Also, we're not friends, so don't act like we are.
The next time I go somewhere and a waiter says this to me I'm going to let them have it, because seriously, I might kill everyone.

Right now I'm watching my sister play this really weird game on the Wii called Animal Crossing. I can't stop watching...and I'm also really embarrassed to say, I get really into it.

So today was the day that everyone else in my house went back to work and school. My mother is currently out of town with my grandma, who just had her ankle replaced. My sister went back to senior year of high school, and my dad went to do something with natural gas. I have no idea what he does exactly.

I totally planned to get up at 8:30 and do stuff..I don't know what kind of stuff...but I ended up getting up at 11 instead, just because my pillow was so delicious and comfy.

I was going to get up an bake something and I had planned to make Ina's white bread thing, but this house does not have all the ingredients... like yeast. Thanks mom. So instead I found this other recipe for espresso cereal bars. Uh...DELICIOUS! So I go ahead and start them and what happens...? No peanut butter...like...someone put the peanut butter in the fridge with it only gracing the sides. Who does that ?! Apparently my mother...awesome mom. Thanks. So I made them anyway with pretty much no PB and they are currently setting. Ugh.

I hope today doesn't suck hardcore like yesterday pretty much did.

When is everything going to get exciting? Maybe Thursday when I have to be back to school by noon in order to sit through four hours of extra RA training. Uh...no. I am not stupid. School may be hard for me, and I may have a short attention span, but I certainly know how to listen and plan things for residents. Having them come to them is another story. Why are freshman so consumed in being freshman? Was I like that last year? Last year I remember not doing anything and having a really good time doing it. I didn't go to any event that my RA invited me too and that was fine with me. Mainly because they were really stupid.

Knock on door at 8pm on Thursday when all my friends were over to watch The Office... answer.. Kim standing there looking really happy, but I could tell she was nervous... "We're having a Mexican fiesta in the lobby...there will be a pinata." Uhhh, ok thanks. (Code for I will not be coming to your really stupid event because you interrupted my friend time, ya stupid!)

My events are cooler, but I no longer care about them. In fact if I could magically not be an RA anymore I would. This is a new thought and it is still forming, but I feel very strongly about it. I just don't want to be with those bitches anymore. I really honestly dislike them all.

But I do like the housing scholarship...Having my own room gives me some serious me space, which is needed.

I have been on winter vacation for it seems like too long. Yes, I love being home with my family and not doing anything, but at the same time I hate it. After living on campus for the first years and a half I have come to appreciate my parents more, but in smaller doses. I go back to school in five days, and they could not come sooner. But with that, I want them to drag on and on and on.

Going back to school means many things. I enjoy college because each semester you start over, like it’s the first day of school twice a year. New classes and a new routine. I like that again this semester. I’m starting five new classes, three of which are of my major, psychology. The others, The Medieval World and Great Conversations II are these weird required classes which I would rather not take, ever.

I need to get one thing straight, first off. School is hard. It is really hard for me. Probably because I have trouble putting forth the proper time and motivation. Its hard damnit. I'm sure I'm not the only one who feels this way. I'm sure...

So, it starts soon and I don't have any of my shit together and waiting till the last minute is probably not a good idea. Even though that is probably what will end up happening. ((Sigh))